its all about me

They says it’s about me and thee
But may be it’s about only me
It’s about how I feel and what makes me
I have been a girl who lived for thee
With my hopes downs.
I took you the way you are
I never wanted to change thee
All I ever wanted was to make you smile
Walk by your side.
 I thought it was love
But it was all about thee
Not about me
I lost myself
Trying to be good enough for thee
Trying to make you smile
Trying to keep you happy
Now when I look back
All I see is tears in my eyes and how I cried like a child
 I thought it was love
But it was all about thee
Not about me
 
Its time I stop this.

Because I know you’re not worth my love

So it’s no more about thee

Now it’s only about me
So now I am going to love me

You were never worth and you’ll never be

Now it’s only about me ,only about me 

i wish to be in love

I wish to be in love

Be with someone who will hold on to me

Be with someone I can trust

Someone who makes me feel free

I am waiting for you

My heart is broken

 its in pieces waiting for thee

May be soon it won’t feel anything

As people now and then hurt me

I have lost the feeling that feeling which makes me believe in thee  

I wish to be in love

Be with someone who will hold on to me

Love you know comes with time

We need to wait and go on dates

Look in each others eyes and see

What world means for thee and me

I am just another girl  who longs to be in love

But is afraid to count on thee

Will you save my sole tonight.

will you hold me tight

In your  arms and never let go

Will you stay by my side

Will you save my sole tonight

And say you love me

I wish to be in love

Be with someone  who will hold on to me

live out loud

Live out loud

You’re meant for clouds

Life is short so do what you want

You will get hurt but don’t give up

Smile a lot.

Never give up on love but wait for the best

Don’t be easy because you are made for the best

So live out loud.

You’re meant for clouds

Life is short so do what you want

17 and still a kid

When you open up yr heart and say what you think.

 You’re 17 and still a kid

When you laugh out loud and stare at clouds

You’re 17 and still a kid

When you walk like you don’t care about anyone

You’re 17 and still a kid

When you play with kids.

You’re 17 and still a kid

 When you try to learn football

 You’re 17 and still a kid.

When you don’t want to date and leave things on your fate.

 You’re 17 and still a kid

When you talk to god and tell him things are going wrong

You’re 17 and still a kid    

When you dream of building underground elevators all over your city

So that it’s easy to meet your friends

You’re 17 and still a kid

When you feel  clouds are magical   

You’re 17 and a kid.

When you tell your heart

 “Hearty don’t be sad not everyone can be so raw and clean when your 17”

You feel so light as if flying and so proud of your thoughts

Trust me it’s not easy to be 17 and still a kid.

STAY RAW STAY HAPPY

22-12-2012

22-12-2012

MATHS’S EXAM!

It is crazy! I thought, ill manage to study on 21-12-2012. As my maths exam was on 22-12-2012.

But god had other plans. It was said 21 is the last day of our world . but as u all know nothing happened and this fact was as true as the fact that i got 98 in maths duh ! bad joke.

So 21-12-12 was a important day for me really really Important. I woke up around 7 am but I was not well had cold n fever I could not even get up from bed

Had back pain due to sleeping on my drawing board ( that's what a architecture student does during exams :P)

And staring at my Ms. Freshers shas for hours. That’s another story so I was thinking how will I study for my maths exam and at the same time I was thinking about that girl to was RAPED and torched to the worst and then I was reminded of the rely we had planed last night.

this incident shook me hard. I could not believe this. But after I finally  accepted the facts this really happened. Maths exam was not a big deal.

Girl with my name

She looked good, talked good, played cool, and Ya! to some extent she could match up my thinking ! So we became friends, really good ones! and then I met my hyper friend, I knew her since we were in Diapers!!!! and then things changed I moved on with my life and now we  were in front of each other, Face to Face!!! her long nose , freakish smile and her hyper expression was worth noticing!

After a long time, ummm 6yrs appx... both of them stand by my side, thre' one of the best gifts i got from god and CJM!!! Every minute of my life with them is worth a silly smile, so our group is like me, anamika, tharki anshu, pagal palak and tubelight Tanvi, We are grown up now, all in their sweet 16zzzzzz daydreaming!!!!!! Honestly nothing has changed its just everyone knows who i am, and now they are a part of my world, they know how it is and this is how i became
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THE MOST POPULAR GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New friend

so i made a new new friend cool !
but how ? it was like i was alone she came to me and asked about my pink bag !
yeah i am girly and i love pink .
she asked me about my pink bag and then she started telling me about her bag her house her sister her mother her father her dresses and her house in US and her car and  everything she knew about her self.
 I found all that interesting for some days but then .
she blew  my mind  off !.
but still she was my  only friend and i listen to what ever she said .
yeah she is really good at heart her name Arushi Sharma my new friend in Chelsea ( Convent of Jesus and Mary is also know as Chelsea ) but then i met a girl with my name !

New school

so what   made me change from a never noticed girl to one of the most popular girl of my school.

all this started from my new school convent of Jesus and Mary.

I was in 7th grade then. i had no friends! 

my new school

but i was  my best friend.

yeah i used to talk to my self and people thought i am crazy !

I still talk to my self and now people find that's cute! 

I always loved my self.

so i had my own world and i loved being alone.

but god had some other plans for me.

As i entered my new class girls started asking me things like what's your name  ? 

where are you from?

and some really stupid questions like are you  new ?( that's how teacher introduced me to the whole class saying i am new what's the point asking the same question again ) 

are you in our class! ( no i am sitting in your  class just for fun ) 

one of them asked me even your name is Anamika ? that was !..............

i don't have words for that !

After some time i found that there was one more girl who's name was Anamika  Bhatia 

same name ! i don't like Shearing  things and shearing my name come on its a big NO! 

I hate it (that's what i said to myself that time) 

but i dint say anything to anyone ( i dint' want to wast my time )

and again i was lost in my world 

but then i made a friend !

My Story

So things change !

In my case they change too fast or sometimes too slow !

so you must be thinking wassup with me this blog was only for poems !

I think your smart enough to know this is the change.

I am talking about.
 my poems always had some meaning, some deep meanings.
 you know, but now i want to explain them all.

so I was talking about the change.

I started writing when i was 12 and now i'll soon be '17'.all these years.
 I have changed from an innocent  down to earth girl ( you can say from a invisible girl) to one of the most popular girl of the school.

 Now when i say most popular girl. i see many eyebrows rise .

I know people talk about me i even know what they talk about me.

All I want is to thank them . 
For giving me there time and THOUGHTS .

Ok so lets get back to the change so 

How I changed from a never noticed girl to someone
who is admired by many but misunderstood by some .
so what changed me ?

hmmmm for that you got to wait for my next post 

that will be published on 17-2-2012

till then good night love you  all

i am a dreamer, a teenager

I am a dreamer, a Teenager.

I am living my Dreams,my life.
I meet angels everyday, my family my friends.
I see god everyday, in trees, woods and every cloudy day.
I watch life everyday,in the sunrise and every night.
i am dreaming my dreams, my ambitions my vision.
I am achieving them all ,by living all my days
i am a dreamer, a teenager

Friends

Friends!
Who are they ?
When i ask this question to my heart
I see some known some strange faces
some are beautiful some are cute
they bring smile everywhere
Are they friends ?
may be they are!
they are fun ,sometimes crazy
When ever i think of them i just cant stop smiling
  Don't know why?
they hold you when your in need and when you feel your meek
They never ask you if they can use your things nor do you ask them
they dont care who your father is
they don't care about yous marks
what they care about in your smile
they laugh with you even if they don't know what is the joke
they cry with you even if they dont know why your crying
what they know is that your sad or happy
they listion to yours nonsence, talk and in the end ask you hows your dog?
you know that< you know this! they both did kiss
! they keep you upto date with every news of any date! 
your boyfriend is a cheat! your dumping him now ! 
I ll see how u ll meet
 Sometimes they act like yr mum! and you feel like to kick there bum!
 Have you studied for your test? 
ya! it was a test so we were supposed to study? 
Dam! how can you do this to me your not my friend!
 i can write on and on! but still cant define them all! 
so to conclude i would say 
Friends are those Who can be yr mom dad sis bro and everyone you know.
 they just care about your smile and smile and smile!
 they are truly yours! 
love you friends